This Thing In Me

its been a long time, so long that i dont remember when it begun or even how and why. i cant explain what is it in me thats bothering me. i dont know why i started feeling this way. it hurts, thats one thing i know for sure.

im fine, im fine – thats what ive been telling all my friends and to myself. i thought i was fine all these while, but it just hit me that im not fine at all. ive been living in this shade of lie for the past 4 years. and all these while i thought things were fine. 4 years, that is also the same length of time since i last shed a tear drop.

i have emotions, but i cant seem to let it out. ive been wanting to cry whenever im down or for whatever reason for me to cry, but i cant. i just cant and i dont know why. i need to cry. i need to let it out. i just dont know how. dont know anymore.

~ by lifeasasecret on February 21, 2008.