It’s All Black And White

im such a complicating person. i dont know what i want, dont know what i need, and i really dont want to think. my love life is such a mess, my mind is so confused, my past is haunting me, and all i want is to smile and be happy. how hard can that be? i wish i could run away from all these and start all over, but im afraid thats just easier said than done. how can i leave everything behind and go?

i want a guy who can love me for who i am. i want someone who will treasure me, care for me, and most importantly trust me for my every movements. i dont want someone to control my life and tell me what i should be doing. if he is as such, who is he loving? the person he wants me to be? or me as who i am?

i dont want drama, i dont want insecurities, and i as hell dont want a third party involved. if you cant be truthful and faithful, then dont bother wasting your time as well as my time. i dont know if i can handle ldr if i have to spend hours arguing of why i do what i do and who i mix with.

i have a lot of love to give, but if i have to argue everyday or every time we talk, then all you’re doing is restricting all the love i have to give..

i dont know, im confused.. and i really hate this feeling. it just stops me from doing anything!

Let me live. Give me air. I just need to breathe.

~ by lifeasasecret on November 6, 2007.